So, my official position at work has been closed.  No, I’ve not been fired!!  I kind of came up with a temporary solution with one of my bosses to be on call for the summer, and he was okay with that.  I think my other boss, a woman, was the one who wasn’t okay with it – she doesn’t like me very much, as far as I can tell.  I don’t know why, either.  It just boggles the mind sometimes.  I’m nice to everyone!  I don’t hate people (well, not really, I get frustrated like everyone else), and I’m kind, and I go way out of my way to help others out… oh well some people just don’t like me, and that’s that.

But, their boss, my favorite person there methinks, told me (in kind words), to take the summer off, they’d replace me at work, and I’d be rehired in September or October – whenever I’m ready to come back.  That’s a load off my shoulders.  I’m not very thrilled that I’ve been summarily dismissed, but what can I do?  They don’t make allowances for part time people, and they can’t break the rules for me.  It’s nice to know I won’t be called at weird hours of the day and night, though.  I’m really going to miss everyone there.  Well, I probably won’t miss one person, but everyone else I’ll miss.  I should ask if I could keep my binder and stuff there since I’m coming back.

Lets see, I’ve not written in awhile.  I started radioimmunitherapy on top of my chemo, and don’t ask me what it is, since I’m not terribly sure myself.  I’m not as ill as I was – I’ve lost all appetite entirely, which is bad because of the whole diabetes thing, but I don’t feel like I’m going to puke my brains out.  I’m just tired… so, so tired.  Oh, no more internal bleeding either!  Hooray!  What else… the neupogen makes my hips hurt like no ones business, but the steady stream of painkillers has made it manageable.  I no longer cry myself to sleep.  Sean still holds my hand until I drop off, which is a welcome distraction, but I don’t need it as much as I did.  I cry for other things, now.  A friend from school passed away last week, so I’ve been pretty devastated by the news.  Her funeral is today, but there’s no way I could go to it (way too far away).  Most of my friends have left Corvallis for the summer, so I feel a bit forgotten.  Now that I’m not working either, I have nothing to fill my time with.  I thought about helping out at St. Mary’s Vacation Bible School (hooray?) but I don’t really want to.  I’m playing piano at a few weddings this summer, and I’m singing in the choir every weekend at 9 still.  People tell me to, “focus on getting better”.  Bla bla bla.  I have an IQ of 163.  I can’t just sit here and twiddle my thumbs.  I’ve pulled out my GRE Physics test books and have begun to painstakingly go over each one.  I may go over old physics classwork and relearn a lot of things I’ve forgotten.  Or I could get out my Thermal Physics book and teach myself some new stuff.

I’m bored.  I have cancer, and a puppy (oh, Sir Digby is adorable! Look at pictures on Facebook), and nothing else to do.  Phooey.


In the hospital

So, Sean and Ashley both said I should see the doctor on monday because my jaw hurt like none other. Thursday night, I was reduced to tears because it hurt so much, and I finally took some percocet at Sean’s insistence. I just ended up being higher than a kite for the rest of the evening, rather ill, and babbling incoherently. I was better in the morning, but my jaw still hurt on and off, and I was feeling warm. My jaw seized up for a few hours, which was uncomfortable. I was okay by the time I went to play Bunco with the church choir (yeah, I have exciting Friday nights), and I had SOOOO much fun. So, shuttup all ya’ll who think that’s lame.

Around 3:30-4 am, long after Sean and Stephanie had left my house, I started to get delirious and dizzy, and I totally freaked out. I tried to call my next door neighbour, Stefanie (different than the one above), but my phone didn’t work. So, I banged on her front door until she opened it, and she took me to the hospital. I was there all night, hooked up to various machines, and there were four or five bags hanging above me for various reasons. I apparently know Star Trek’s TNG pretty well, because I was mumbling about that, and I hallucinated that I saw Worf in a codpiece with triangular hair. Ooh, and I told the nurses to call David Bowie, since he’s apparently my father (according to Sean, anyways). I was coherent and aware of everything by 11:30 this morning, and felt a lot better. They killed my fever, thankfully, and they let me leave on the condition I didn’t do crap.

I have a party at 9 pm tonight, then I’m supposed to work at midnight until eight. Then I have choir from 8-10:30, and then again tomorrow night at 7. I’m insane. I may call off the party, and I can sleep at work. Wow, I’m seriously retarded. But, working isn’t really doing anything since we never get calls at night. We’ll see. Anyone who cares to yell at me is welcome to in the comments field.

Been busy!

Well, no, I’ve had a strep throat kind of thing and I finally got my fever manageable today.  I’ve had school, watched Chelsea play (the Huddersfield match was brilliant… the Champions League match the other day… not so brilliant).  Work was busy on monday.  I had a customer who couldn’t find the escape key (he pronounced it ex-scape).  I was like, “Sir, it’s the button in the top-left corner of your keyboard.”  “Nope, don’t see it.”  *sigh*  “Sir, it’s right there.  It may say ‘esc’ on it?”  No dice.  I worked with him for over 30 mins on just setting up his dial up connection.  Sad.  I’ve not had a customer like that in awhile.  Had to leave early last night b/c my fever was getting worse and I had lost my voice.  My boss was NOT happy with me.  “If you HAVE to leave, then leave,” he said.  Well, I had to leave.  Jerkface.

So, I have the day off today, and I plan on napping on and off, and doing some hw.  May have to go see the dr if my fever doesn’t totally go away.  It’s only 100.6F right now, which isn’t *bad* persay.

Oh, in women’s studies today, they played my song!  I turned in the song “The Veil” by Dawud Whamsby Ali as a feminist song, and I explained how the song is really an answer to all those people who say wearing hijab is oppression.  Some people wear it in solidarity with those who have to wear it, but it’s a choice for me I suppose.  I’m still not wearing it 24/7 yet, but I’m getting there.  I think it gets easier every time 🙂

Oh goodie.

This is really becomming a whine-fest, I think. I swore to myself I wouldn’t whine on my blog, since my friends get enough of that as is. But, whatever. So, today at work was interesting enough. We had these really important NEES people coming, and I gave a short presentation on my coastal erosion project. They weren’t impressed, I think. I just thought my slides looked nice. Maybe they weren’t impressed because I was in dirty, ripped jeans with sand and mud all over me. I was crawling around in the wave flume resetting my instruments. After that, Alicia gave them a tour while I was sent to Bi-Mart to buy a hair dryer. So, the Army guys dropped our remote for the crane in the tsunami tank. What retards.

Them: “Oh, Kristin can go get us a hair dryer, she’s a girl.”
Me: “Well spotted.”
Them: “It better not be pink.”
Me: “It’ll be whatever damn colour I want it to be!”

And then I went to Bi-Mart. It’s full of stupid people. Then I played in sand some more, and helped get a dead bird out of the large flume. Oh, and we got the remote out of the tsunami tank, and got it dried out. Again, I’m surrounded by stupid people. I think tonight, I’ll hang out with Andrew some more, watch a movie maybe, and have dinner. Oh crap, I’m supposed to cook for him. Christ.

Wave Lab pics

People keep asking me what we’re doing at the wave lab, so here are some pictures!

This is our gravel shoot. It creates landslide tsunamis by, well, shooting gravel into the water.

This is the view from right below my office. As you can see, the tank has no water in it. I think we’re done with this experiment, and we have to wait to take the stuff out until it’s utterly dry. I’ll have to ask someone about that.

This is the large wave flume. We’re doing a dune overtopping experiment right now. You can see the waves running! And notice the OSU flag 🙂

SO, that’s what’s going on at work. Hooray!